Not many people get to call their mam their best friend so young, but we got each other completely. I’ll still ask you questions when i’m 40 with kids wondering what you would do, and i’ll still hear your voice. Mam, you’ve gave me the best love i could’ve ever asked for, you gave me a life that i wouldn’t change, i’d endure every single part again to end up in the same place we did because we both wouldn’t change a thing. You knew you were my bestest friend for life, and that continues in your physical absence. I hear you, i feel you, i know you, i just can’t see you in front of me. You live in my head, and i’ll never doubt for a moment how proud you are. I love you. I couldn’t give you the words i feel because that love won’t ever be articulated in any sentence ever. You’re my peace, you’re my protection, my kindness, my love, it is and always has been you. I’ll mourn you till my dying day where i see you again. Rest your eyes now, Mam. We’ll be alright down here. I promise.
24th January 2023